Tricky to See [EP]

by Stephan Nance

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released September 23, 2008

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Stephan Nance Eugene, Oregon

I'm Stephan Nance. I'm a singer-songwriter based in Eugene, Oregon. You can call my music poetic piano rock.

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Track Name: Immunodeficiency
Trouble is,
Nowadays,
We go walking in the rain
Protected by our plastic parasols.

From the mists
To the waves,
We don't think we ever will implode again,
The mighty leaden rollers rushing in to kill us all.

But the ships are swiftly sinking,
And the submarine in which I am
Sequestering myself
Is failing to produce a proper answer.
I'm thinking to myself,
I'm telling me that deftly I'll be
Giving my advice to all the world, that
The cells we're in are splitting
So it's looking like
It's likely that it's cancer.

You looked sweet
Standing there,
Smiling at me sleepily
Suspiciously like someone who is dead.

Shake the sheets,
Let 'em air,
We'll go down in history
Conspicuously grinning like the cat who's in the story life we've led.

And the ships are softly sighing
As the sedimental seafloor says
A prayer to bring them home
And sings a sullen cradle song of death.
I'm thinking to myself,
I'm telling me that certainly we
Haven't got the heart to tell the world that
The tumors are malignant,
So the time is coming
When we'll breathe our last breath.

From the start,
Where was I?
I was not the kind of guy
To look a fading flower in the eye.

Cross your heart,
Hope to die,
Hope to soon be sailing smoothly heaven-high,
Surrounded by the seabirds as they skim the starless sky.
Track Name: I am not a stranger here
I don’t know this town,
But it’s your town—
So it’s my town too;

I don’t know that girl,
But she knows you—
So she’s my friend too;

I don’t know my way,
But I can count on you
To show it to me;
I am not a stranger
When I’m with you,
When I’m with you.
(D-d-do do do do do.)

Your mother seems to like me,
And you tell me
That it’s true;

Your cousin makes me food
That I have only ever
Dreamed of trying!;

I can tell that I
Could be so happy here
With you forever;
I am not a stranger
When I’m with you,
When I’m with you.
(D-d-do do do do d-d-do.)

Your room is a cave
That offers shelter from the stormy weather and
Beneath a pile of blankets we can
Hide away together, we can
Hide away together, we can
Hide away together, we can
Hide away together, we can...

When it’s time for me
To up and leave, there’s
A part of me I can’t make follow;

All day long
I’m longing for you,
And the tears are so hard to swallow;

After knowing
Life with you,
Life without you
Leaves me hollow... oh...

I don’t know my way,
But I can count on you
To show it to me;
I am not a stranger
When I’m with you,
When I’m with you;
I don’t know this road,
But I can count on you
To lead me down it;
I am not a stranger
When I’m with
You, when I’m with
You, when I’m with
You, when I’m with
You.
Track Name: Try to Try Again
It's easier
To kiss a stranger than it is to kiss a friend
It's easier
To say goodbye when you know that it's the end
And it's hard
To know just where you stand
Anymore
Anymore

I tried so hard
To give you loving that I never gave you love
I tried so hard
To keep you happy that I hurt you when I shoved
You away
In the end

(chorus)
When you were down
I tried to pick you up
When you were dry
I tried to fill your cup
But I could never seem to fill it high enough
It was always half empty for you
If you think you can stand
To have me as just a friend
We can try to try again

When we were younger
It was okay
For you to like me in that way
But now I can hardly bear to stay
With your crazy feelings pushing me away

It seems to me
That maybe finally your heart has settled down
But now you treat me like you hate me
When you deign to come around
What am I
Supposed to do?

I decide
To keep my distance in the hope that it'll please you
But you call me up
Demanding why I never want to see you
Anymore
Anymore

(chorus)

If I could like you in that way
You know I would
But since I don't already
How can you think that I should?
It would be more effective
If you were less selective
Maybe we could be less formal
If you acted normal for a change

(chorus)
Track Name: Atrophy
You drove by me in your warm new car
I was walking down the street
You looked so comfortable with your backs
Against your heat-controlled seats
I slipped on some frozen mud
And started sliding
And the records that the world was spinning
Started skipping.

(chorus)
And it felt like the muscle
Had all turned to fat.
So we got what we got
And we lack what we lack.
And the things that we lose
We can never get back
So hold on to them tight
When they're under attack.

The world is so cold and frozen.

Checking out at the market
You came in all cold and soakin'
It made me think of all the time gone by
Since the two of us had spoken.
My heart went dumb, my hands went numb
And my grocery bags went falling
To see you stalking down the aisles
While right beside you he was walking.

(chorus)

Since you've gone I can't seem to manage to lift myself up
Or pick myself up.

(chorus)
Track Name: Song for Losers
I’m a pretty good guy—
I scrub behind my ears each morning,
And I floss every night.

I care about the environment—
Nowadays people seem to admire that—
And yet,
It’s so hard to find a friend…

If you don’t drink,
If you don’t smoke,
If you don’t wanna poke
Everything with a pulse,
You’re a loser,
A disaster,
They’re perpetually telling you to grow up faster.
Well, if that’s what it takes to be cool,
Someone needs to change the rules.

I’m impossibly kind—
I’ll never ever forget your birthday,
And I’ll always care what’s on your mind.

I’ll go with you to the fair—
And maybe if we’re lucky I can win you a bear—
So where
Is someone when I need someone there?

If you don’t drink,
If you don’t smoke,
If you don’t wanna poke
Everything with a pulse,
You’re a loser,
A disaster,
They’re perpetually telling you to grow up faster.
Well, if that’s what it takes to be cool,
Someone needs to change the rules.

I'm a vegetarian,
And I ride my bicycle whenever I can.
I’ve got a feeling I could save the world—
If I had someone to help me…

Outside on every street
I pass a multitude of people
That I’d never wanna meet—
As they stagger to a place where they’ll carouse all night,
I just wanna cry and yell at them with all my might,
I just wanna stop and tell them that it’s not okay
For them to fritter every second of their life away like that!
I wanna say, hey! Why can’t you see?
You don’t know what a party is
Till you’ve hung out with me…
We can dance through the puddles in the empty streets
We can warm up and cuddle in between the sheets
We can make popcorn on the stove
We can watch X-men
Parts one, two, and/or three…

If you don’t drink,
If you don’t smoke,
If you don’t wanna poke
Everything with a pulse,
You’re a loser,
A disaster,
They’re perpetually telling you to grow up faster.
Well, if that’s what it takes to be cool,
Someone needs to change the rules,
Send me back to elementary school
So I can play all day in my kiddy pool,
Never have to worry about how buff I’m not,
Never have to worry about how tough I’m not, and
Maybe I won’t even notice whether I am loved or not—
I dunno.
I dunno,
I dunno…

I don’t know what to do.
I’m in a quandary
It’s clear I need somebody
But I cannot seem to find out who…

And if they’re anything like me,
It’s likely that this person would be tricky to see,
So if you do,
Would you please refer them to me?

‘Cause I don’t drink…
And I don’t smoke…
But I could brighten up
Your day with a joke—
If you let me…
Once you’ve met me,
Maybe I can make it so you never want to forget me…

Maybe we could change the rules.
Track Name: The Penny Song
When we went out to the store,
I got mad at you
But I'm not mad anymore.
If it's meaningful to you,
It's important to me too.

Don't you know that I love you?
Don't you know that I adore you?

(chorus)
In the dark of the night when I hear you snore
I couldn't love you more.
If you were a penny glued down to the floor
I couldn't want you more.

When you went and cut your hair,
You looked ridiculous
But I tried hard not to stare.
If it really pleases you,
I guess I can like it too.

Don't you know that I love you?
Don't you know that I adore you
No matter what you do?

(chorus)

If you were a sweater,
I'd wash you by hand,
And if you were a beach,
I would sink my toes in your sand.
If you were a pineapple,
I wouldn't care if you were
Fresh, or frozen, or canned.

Don't you know that I love you?
Don't you know that I adore you?

(chorus)
Track Name: Guts
When I was walking home from the store
Carrying my plastic grocery bags
I saw some stupid fag get hit
By a car, what fools they all are

Still I wondered for a second at the moment of impact
From afar, could I really know the gender for a fact?

I left my groceries there on the sidewalk
Ran to the intersection where it was lying
Choking back vomit I gazed at the carcass
And I reeled as the sky and the pavement blended

The world around me fell away
And the sight I saw was sickeningly gray

It was hard to determine the sex
Just by looking at the guts
Couldn't tell whether or not, not at all
Apparently we all look the same on the inside.
Who would've thought?
Well, I blinked a few times and took a deep breath and
Since there wasn't anything I could do
I retrieved my plastic bags from the sidewalk
And told myself everything would be fine
I walked home calmly, truly thankful
That my frozen foods would make it home in time.